So it is extremely hard to not talk about being a senior in every blog. I guess this one will follow the trend.

Spring break is 2 weeks away. And what happens after spring break? TIME GOES BY EVEN FASTER. Oy.

I must say that I am picking up on little pointers as senior year progresses along. First of all, I have become comfortable in my social network.  I have learned to (as best as I possibly can) let the petty things slide and focus on the issues that are worth the stress and the analyzation.  Its still a tricky process coming from someone who tends to care about way too much, but there are vast improvements being made by the week.  I have also learned to accept the “holy hell I am going to miss this place” moments.  I no longer fight them. There have been times during soccer season and random moments doing things like walking through the student center when it dawns on me that every moment here for the remainder of my senior year is a small luxury.  Even when I drive around I find myself looking just a little bit harder at my surroundings and appreciating them that much more. 

Anyways, despite all of this I am looking forward to spending a relaxing week in Key Largo, Florida for Spring Break and hopefully there,  with the help of the ocean, I can continue collecting my thoughts on how to deal with the big G word.

 

peace, love, and Witt.

Senior year is full of obligations such as senior comprehensive tests, senior comprehensive essays, the GRE, and other standardized ways to “test all of the knowledge you have acquired thus far blahblahblahblah.” However, I have realized that despite all this, another task that comes from being a senior in college is that your decision making process is often challenged and magnified.

Freshmen year, decisions fall along the lines of: 

Should I go out Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday- or all of the above?

Sophomore year decisions are mostly: 

Can I go back to all of the fun from freshmen year?

Junior year decisions are a little more serious:

Should I like get an internship or something?

And then there is senior year:

Is this what I want to do with my life? Do I really want to waste my time filling out this one last application when there is a chance I will not get selected to fulfill this opportunity? Do I risk losing out on lucrative opportunities that are not set in stone, for the one current opportunity that could give me an experience of a lifetime? Do I actually need to go to graduate school? Which standardized test(s) do I really need to take? Should I take a year off? Can I stand to live at home with my parents until I figure out what I’m supposed to do with my life?

Recently, I had to make yet another big decision. I had applied to go on the Africa trip to Lesotho (through Wittenberg) that would leave the day after graduation and return about a month later.  It was something that I had always held a great deal of interest in doing, so I figured it was an opportunity that I should try and take.  So, I applied for the trip and didn’t get in.  I was not upset that I didn’t get in, I just figured that it was not meant to be and so I moved along and started trying to line up other opportunities for the summer (working in Colorado, working in Michigan, working anywhere but at home).  This week, I got a phone call saying that there was now an open spot on the trip and I was asked if I was still interested. Well needless to say, this threw me for a complete loop. Everything happens for a reason- why am I being presented this opportunity again? I analyzed and analyzed… talked to my parents and analyzed again.  Finally, I came to the conclusion that although this would be a wonderful opportunity probably warranting the experience of a lifetime, it would be basically delaying the inevibatble: the scary and harsh REAL WORLD. I think that in the long run, going on this trip would just make it that much harder to re-enter the USA without the comfort of the Wittenberg bubble that I had as a support for 4 years. So today, I declined what (at one point) was an opportunity that I could have seen myself completely loving.  And that is a prime example of the decision process that comes with senior year.

Cheers.